HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I know I know I know, Im an ENTIRE WEEK LATE! whatever- I’m a busy girl. But to anyone who actually reads this- I love you vary much ( yes-vary because I love you all differently 😉 and I have some AMAZING news to write about.
I have been wanting to get involved with my church again for some time but I felt like God had kinda turned his head from me because I had become such a disappointment. I had some things happen in my life that really showed me what was important- not just what I thought was the most important. It was like a huge slap in the face from the Lord. Got my priorities lined up the way they were supposed to be. Family before work and friends. Christ before all else.
I had an opportunity to attend OneThing2011- a conference put on ever year by iHop Kansas City. If you haven’t heard about iHop you should really click the link I so nicely imbedded into the last sentence for your convenience 🙂 [Remember- I love you, I like to aid you in life like an easy button.] Anyways though if you choose not to click the link I can give you a quick over view- ihop is all about 24/7 prayer and worship so that the world knows of Christs’ love and adoration. iHop is also super awesome about creating forerunners for Christ- This means that people are being called to share the knowledge of the Lords’ return and his love BEFORE it happens- which means ASAP- cuz people get ready- He is coming back.
So this is where the absolutely amazing part for my life comes into play. On December 30th- Wes Hall was talking about the world needing forerunners and as I’m sitting cross-legged on the floor taking notes and letting the Holy Spirit fill me- I realize that this is what I’m being called to do. I had been praying for so long wanting to figure out my calling and before this all I knew was that I needed to help people. Yup- that narrows it down right? BUT this! Being a forerunner was so brilliant to me! Saving lives for Christ. This is something I can do- but I had just in the past few weeks dedicated my life back to the Lord- who am I to lead people to Him? Am I even qualified for something like that? I felt like it was applying for a job you didn’t meet any of the qualifications for… Like going to art school but working as a mechanical engineer! CRAZY! I needed the knowledge of Christ in my soul and my mind before I could ever do something like this. So Wes Hall is still up there talking and he tells all 30,000 of us at the conference to pray to the Lord to serve us so that we may serve Him. Cool right? The Lord can serve me? I mean its not like He’s making me a latte but He wants to help me learn! The Lord wants to be my teacher- who better to teach me about the Lord then the Lord himself? Duh, no brainer right? Exactly.
Fast forward 2 hours and the church group I came with decides we need to go to the prayer room. (prayer room: awesome room with continuous 24/7 live worship and prayer) Im still racking on my brain about needing to talk to the Lord. Then it clicks- How else to talk to the Lord than through prayer Were gong to the prayer room. Problem solved. Prayer Room+ me= AWESOME LORD EXPERIENCE. Right? YES!! I admit- ask me 2 weeks ago if I believed in instantly answered prayers and I would have been like “umm yeah it could happen.” But guess what, Im a believer now. I walked into the prayer rom knowing exactly what I needed to happen. I walked up to the front of the room and made my own little spot on the floor- bible open to random pages. journal open. pen ready. music booming through my body- so loud I can’t hear myself think. Guess what- that was the most important part. I couldn’t hear myself think, it opened my heart up to what the lord was telling me. I ended up on my knees praying out loud sobbing. I felt the Lord’s fire in my soul- filling me with the need for knowledge and the ability to find it. 45 minutes later I look down at my bible and a bible verse pops up 3D style and gets engraved in my heart- Ecclesiastes 5:4 When you make a vow to God, do not delay in fulfillment of it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfill your vow. Well thats pretty straight forward. Then I look and see this girl crying and praying and I feel like I am being drawn to her. I think to myself “Really God? Right now? Act on my vow NOW?!” Before I knew it, I had moved and kneeled next to the young woman. Guess what she needed prayer for? If you guessed something sad- you are wrong 🙂 SHE WAS PRAYING FOR THE SAME THING I WAS PRAYING FOR!!! AHH!!! So cool. So I began praying for the Lord to fill her with His knowledge. Serve her so she can serve Him. I prayed so hard. Then I somehow began speaking for both of us- begging and demanding the Lord to fill us with His Holy Spirit. We want so badly to serve you, Lord. Our hearts are longing for you. We are ready to be your servants. We want to be forerunners for You, Lord. We need to gain knowledge of You so that we may tell people all around the world of Your coming. Overwhelm us with your love and knowledge. We want to work for you, Lord. Serve us so that we may serve You. Cool right? (It’s now a prayer I say every single day.) Alex ( the young woman I was praying over) pulled away from me and said ” I don’t know what it means or what it is because its never happened to me before but im seeing a vision every time you speak. A tower with a cup on top with an eagle flying.” Crazy cool right? Do I know what it means? Not at all- but everyday I am searching for it. Everyday I pray to the Lord to guide me and show me where he needs me- I will go anywhere and do anything for him- even if I dont even possibly know how I can make it work- I know that through Him all things are possible.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!